A deja-vu

I know this pain
it has grown on me
and I have become familiar with it
it's almost welcome
as it appears
cold and lingering
in my bones
once again

Like walking in snow
for hours
it's a sleepiness
I want to go deep
into a waking,dreamless trance
hoping to wake up
a lighter,happier me

Are dreams a forbidden gift?

OH MY BELOVED SLAUGHTERER!!!!http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=peTnXclTFrQ